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I would very much want to travel to europe when it snows! very very much. Wearing those furry winter wears, holding you in my arms, skiing, snowball fight, and enjoying the chill down my spine!  Shiok only.


Will you go with meeeeee?


Big issue, where do I get the moneeeeey ?!

there’s so much I have on my mind but it comes and goes, sometimes they are nice, sometimes they are bad, but when they are bad, I get really sad all of a sudden and tears well up in my eyes. Probably I feel that way because I don’t know what is better right now and what my next step should be. I don’t really feel right with life now, even though fun time’s coming and much more stuff ahead. oh well.

have been in a bad mood for past few days. Probably cause im unwell.


Thanks for putting up with my terrible attitude towards you. Love.

It's never late to LEARN.

Good for me, I learnt how to swim FREESTYLE! FEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD :D

Not so good though, I'll continue to learn proper strokings.



Everybody has to start somewhere. way to go!

For the past is the past.

Feels so wrong, so wrong.

So what?

At the end of the day, my dear Sara's there.

I'm sorry.

I know that you still do and I never doubted that.

Being upset all the time is not that I want to neither do I like it.

It's being hard on myself and unfair towards you.

Yeah so go ahead and pursue what you love doing.

I'll be the factor NOT that stops you from doing it

i mean it.



I'm a lover, not a fighter.






I don't want to live day by day just like that.
I gotta find something to do.
Intensive self-training during the holiday will be my priority.

not yet the best but i can improve. I want to train with my team mates not alone! =((((

Will those same words ever turn meaningless?

Will emotions overcome the soul and mind of the strongest person?

Will one ever understand the other party wholly?

Why do we always let negative factors suppress us from achieving our aims?

Why do most people want to take the easiest way out for every problems?

Sadly, why do people just live life on the surface and not think through every actions that they make?

"you make it happen, thats why the problem exists over and over again"

I'll try again, believe my mental strength is still with me :)

Be lazy,not :)

I'll be disciplined.

I'll be independent.

I'll think through.

I'll decide soon.

Everthing's getting tougher day by day. I just want things to slow down but how can that be possible. Sure Everybody wants that to happen.

There are some who really go all out to pursue in what they are passionate in n they did it. Big bucks and awesome car. I will want to walk the same journey.

Lately, I've been losing focus and feeling indistinct but anw I finally found something which I want to pursue in apart from working my way back to national team. I aspire to be a photographer and soon will be hunting for free lance photography jobs. I'll seize every opportunity. It may take months or a couple of years but I'll continue learning.

My mind tells this but what I truely desire is another. Oh well, as of now I'll focus on my goals.



Love Grandma and Grandpa.

Camp was a total blast!

First night was kind of a first hand performance of sex actions thing like WTH BUT FUN.
Card games and 'DARE' throughout the night. Everyone were up for 'DARE' which were all totally obsene dares. AWESOME NIGHT.

Horror movie, ghost stories(like, OH SHIT)night walk, amazing race, dirty n gross game stations, Dance and performance were damn fun and enjoyable.

Not a least bit of regret.

Today I made a promise

And the promise shall not be broken.

40 laps today. wooohooo. Ended with a headache but nevertheless a fruitful day indeed.

Photography at Singapore Zoological Garden. Is that God's calling? I feel it is.

Will it be a turning point in life? Shall see=)





not yet the best.

Swam
lunch-ed
Frolick
Marina Square - got a pair of shorts=)
Esplanade
Strolled to Clark Quay
Dinner
Running

it all sum up the day. Awesome.




Kind of decided to join ultimate frisbee.
Without a sport to engage in is driving me insane man.

Racing against time. Poly schedule is so screwed up. Projects cram together and all are due a week after another when exam is ard the corner. No frigging time to mug, plus econs and accountings are so tough. SENTOSA! AGAIN! Chilling out there is so much fun-ner but because of the upcoming exam, I've gottaaaaaaaa skip itttt. Perhaps. Roar.






Ps: Thanks Bro for being there like ALWAYS/ Shall pray you'll not have headache.

Air pistol competition today was really shaky. A tough struggle. My body started trembling for the last 2 series for no apparent reason. Having to shoot three to four 8s in a row, ftw, on the verge of giving up. The urge to make a comeback has made me lost focus. Looking at the disappointing and shitty 357 on my score sheet, I hold back my tears n pretend I was fine but I cant hide cos you guys no I'm not.

Each time I'm at the competition ground, a forceful feeling burns within me rather than something which I will look forward to. Competitions do not fuel me to train nowadays. Problems I encounter during trainings keep arising but I cant handle them all. That makes me more unwilling to train. Now I realise perhaps I cant progress much without my coach. shucks shucks shucks!

Everyone has been asking 'when you coming back into national team' and i'll be like 'ehh...' well, I also wish to be part of the team again real soon and train together w you guys. I rather have someone to give me some pressure so that i can push myself n know what i'm aimming for. C'mon man, I need somebody to cheer me on, give me motivation n help me seek the passion which has now lost. I NEED SOME PRESSURE TO KEEP ME GOING. fffffff!

GYM GYM GYM, RUN RUN RUN, SWIM SWIM SWIM!

I needa start working out again, like frequent gyming,running and swimming. I wanna learn freestyle! RAWR, someday eh. I want a good and fit bod. Why it seems like girls with muscles and tough bod are look at as gross or whatsoever. aye! well, who cares, i like tough body and triceps :D finally, i found my running partner which means running without boredom. awesome.

I'm so looking forward to wakeboarding after SOSC! yayness.


you you! yes you, way to go! run run run. running is just...erm running:D

The feeling of something missing in my life snapped me just like that. Yet again, I wish I know what it is. Touch rugby; believe me, I still can't get over it. After couple of years past, at last I found another sport which I promised myself I will excel in because TR is fun and competitive. But I got turned off by people as quickly as I started training because of scolosis and stuffs.

SHOOTING. Yes, i've picked up from where I dipped. I don't deny that i am eager to perform well again but mixed emotions create a barrier between me and my goal. I thought i could handle it well like the past. I was wrong. Its different now. I feel that everything that I used to achieve and the dream that I once used to hold on have all gone down to drain.

I need a glimpse of hope and miracle. Emotions bottled up and I can't find the strength to curb them and all I know is that tears just filled my eyes and I wept. My goodness, and now I can feel so many stuffs and issues come crashing down on me.